strangely

strangely, it seems like i have no feelings for anything anymore.

yesterday and the day before..i was eating js for the sake of eating.

i dont think i enjoyed what i ate..like there were no taste at all.

i talk to ppl, and i dont feel anything. neither happy, nor sad, nor excited and such.

i think

this is the consequences of boredom, or emptiness.

2011

2011

please treat me well.

thanks.:D

i think

i think i should be a player

instead of a nice, sweet girl who cares too much.

i give up on wanting a serious, committed rship.

last minute

i absolutely hate ppl who does and decide things last minute.

SO STUPID, no offense.

suppose to have xmas dinner with boss and workmates,

but damn cb never call yet till now.

how last minute can they be man?

dont even know the time and place for dinner. ish

-_____-

think we got nothing better to do but stay home and wait for their call?

sheesh

anyway, merry xmas.

i know yet i dont know

hm i know the feelings arent there anymore

yet, part of me still can't decide what i wanna do.

should i js forget abt it and move on completely?

or maybe part of me still wants to trust and believe?

i really don't know..

Naive-ness

i thought it was right to trust..

i thought it was okay to always look at the good side of someone and accept their bad side

but WHY

why do things always have to prove me wrong?

now i really dont know what to believe in anymore..

how can a person say that those were merely just sweet words?

there's no truth to it then?

everything was a fake?

i am seriously speechless.

how ridiculous can a person get?

it's not that i care that much anyway.

i've been trained to be numb already.

but just the way how the person put things js maddens me.

they think they're so great?

fck off man, fck off.

it's best not to expect that much in anything anymore. thanks for such a great lesson.

as someone mentioned before,

"you don't just come into someone's life, make them care, and then check out."

i seriously have yet to understand how the minds of ppl work. how can ppl js play around so easily.

i know i can't. i never play around with someone's heart, never.

if im not interested, i'm not interested.

i dont give false hope. i dont toy around with ppl's feelings cos that's just plain wrong.

anyhoo, this is a freaking nice song.

have a nice day peeps (: