run away?

6 more days till i get back to Melb.

can't run away anymore.

gotta accept it, even it's somewhere i kinda dread going back.

since there're still other good things back there.

(:

rainbow after the rain

"Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart."

that quote above is true..but i'd rather have had that person rather than not have had him at all before yeah?

i'm really trying hard to be optimistic now..

i'm very sure there'd be a "rainbow after the rain."

even though i still feel emptiness conquering my heart now..

i'll still try, cos there really isnt any point holding on to something that will never happen again. right?

"Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional."

So why should i choose to suffer?

Even though i'm probably just saying all these to make myself move on easily,

but yeah, whatever works right? lol. =D

it's been a month already.

been way too long.

i dont even feel sad anymore; but rather i would say i'm just being stubborn and still not accepting it.

about time i get back to realityyyy.

but realities are never nice =0

i am so dreading going back to Melbourne. Boo.

i am in need of some spice in my life, period.

no more late nights!

oh am gee.

i just came back from facial and it hurt like mad!!

no more late nightsssss

nooooo more.

this is by far the worst facial treatment i have had.

i almost died. like seriously.

my "no more late nights" = sleeping at 11 everyday.

errrrr..?

yeah right.

i'll try anyway.

zzz

ok, i'm so done with it.

no more sudden burst of craziness.

(:

must watch movies!

inception is super, super good.

really must watch it!

and hachiko is very, very touching

must watch it tooooo.

(:

singaporeee.

like finally, the trip's been finalised.

22nd-25th!

:D:D:D

not gonna shop till i drop cos i'm already broke.

but just want to visit to chill and relax,

well basically, a change of environment.

cant wait (=

definitely feeling much better nowadays.

i still think stimes, but it doesn't really hurt anymore.

dont get me wrong, i hurt cos i miss, not cos it was filled with bad memories.

you'll always be part of my most cherished memories. hehe.

icy cold heart..

sometimes i even wonder how can i be so heartless?

so uncaring and just icy cold.

is it cos i dono what to do and say?

or i don't know how to show that i actually do care?

cos for some reason..

all i've been doing is complaining non-stop.

i feel bad, i feel like a useless person.

if i were to be in their position instead, i know i wouldn't feel good about it either.

i really donno how to care, i dont.

i don't want to be like this.

i shouldn't be.

i can't be.

i've no excuse to be like this.

D:

i really am selfish.

Two is Better than One.

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one


I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

i realised i never actually listen to the lyrics of songs properly..

now that i'm starting to do so..i can definitely appreciate the song much better.

makes it more meaningful.

don't know what to think.

i just feel like running from everything, everyone.

wouldnt it be great if i could just disappear off to some place where no one knows me at all?

i hear other ppl's problems around me..

and yet i can't do anything to help.

i myself have my own problems..how can i even help others when i'm so powerless and useless?

all i do is listen..

and i can't even say anything to make things better.

especially when those are ppl very dear to me.

maybe i'm just plain selfish?

just wanna drown in my own sorrows and not care about anyone else's?

my life is seriously fcked up.

what to think, what to think???????!

BAH.

moving on

as promised..

2 weeks.

=D

i'm moving on.

hell yeah..

just hope that we can still talk like friends and still be part of each other's life despite being at different places.

(:

taurus/snake

every now and then..

aimless, lost and a bored certain someone (namely, me) will indulge myself with horoscopes js to entertain myself and maybe put me at ease if the readings do prove to be good.

So, i'm a taurus born in the year of the snake.

snake's are sexy :D

but i'm very scared of snakes. dont want em near me at all!

Taurus tames the slithering Snake and relieves a bit of the extraterrestrial perception as well. Wildly attractive to both sexes, this person will be wooed and his or her charms solicited by all variety of swains and suitoresses. Marriage often comes late in life.

We are the slithering stoics..

This is the most natural of Snakes. Snake people often display cosmic leanings and cleave to the other worldly. Taurus grounds them. This Snake will be intuitive (as usual), yet wonderfully discreet. The Taurus part of the character will lend earthiness. This wildly attractive creature causes havoc among members of the opposite (or same for that matter) sex. People cannot control their desire to be controlled by this marvelously sensual type whose alluring bedside manner is almost as dangerous in as it is out of bed. The steamy sexual reputation of this cool, yet earthy creature is legendary. When a Taurean born Snake wraps itself around a sex partner, the victim has absolutely no chance of (nor any desire for) escape.

LMAO.

sensual eh.

steamy sexual reputation eh.

wildly attractive creature eh.

hahahahaha.

marriage comes late in life huh...

-_-

i hope the late means late twenties and not like 30s plus plus or stg.

anyhooooo,

i'm back in kuching babehhh!!!

that's like the spontaneous bit i mentioned before.

damn random and spontaneous i know.

gave my parents :D and some others a nice surprise!

haha mum was like.."better not do this anymore..now we can still take it..if u do it say, 10 years later i think our heart cannot take it anymore."

LOL

ppl are like wondering why in the world am i back?

so random..so strange?

haha

what worries me most now is how i can't freaking stop eating!

everywhere i go i wanna eat everythinggggg.

maybe cos it's cheap..the food.

i am not kidding..i just have the urge to nibble on something all the time.

i'm kinda worried for my face dy..getting chubbier and chubbier.

but, but..

kch food is tempting okaayyyy?

so yummy, so nice..soooooo heavenly-like.

anyway..

rainfest later!!! :D:D:D

js for the record,

i ate billin/bidin, kueh chap, char kueh, kolo mee and daddy's deliciously yummy homecook food already!!

more food, more food.

laksa, tu kar peng, red kolo mee from open air market, shao bao, char kueh tiaw from hui sing, ais kacang.......what else?

i still need to eat more!!!!!!

BUNTALLLLL SEAFOOD!!

oh ma gawddddd. -_-

the only thing that annoys me now..is that i have no internet connection for my phone yet ):

sien si..

i cant live w/o internet..sad sad.

make up?

i'm the kind of girl that cant be bothered with putting on make-up.

one reason's cos i'm not skilled at it and i cbb learning.

and seriously, i'm just lazy. haha.

and what more, make-up so expensive some more.

dunno weh..i've been wanting to learn to put on nice eye make-ups for awhile now.

was youtubing and found this girl michelle phan with pretty good tutorials on how to put on eye make up. might consider actually getting myself proper make-up products?

but then again, most people say that natural is the way to be.

like seriously, those girls who's always with make up cant even go out without putting on make up anymore cos make-up really make a big, big difference.

so once people's gotten used to u with make-up, if suddenly u dont put it on...

it's gonna be plain weird and dull-ish maybe? -_-

but yeah..maybe js learn to put for special ocassions and such.

thanks ann.

my bestie ann sent this to me.

almost teared when i read it..cos it's so true.

Ann: Babe...I read this through this girl (Michelle's blog). I reread it 1000 times and it always makes me feel better when I get my heart broken. Hope it helps!

Five months ago, I had this particular face on. It was despairing and miserable; uninterrupted; and if not fabulously enduring, it became a permanent fixture almost, toppling my smile right off its pedestal.

Last night I saw the same face on someone I have only met briefly prior. Although I don’t know her well, I knew her adequately enough to understand and discern the hurt I saw in her eyes, amongst all the tears that unfailingly sought an escape route over and over again.

So this blog post is for her.

Breakups suck. And whilst every cut may be deeper than the other, whether the relationship lasted eight years or eight weeks, the lacerations will all seem equally irreparable; bleeding so much hurt and seeping exorbitant amounts of residual love, that it hardly seems possible to have anything left over for next time.

You wish he’d call – any excuse – but a small part of you really hopes he doesn’t if only for the fact that you know you won’t be able to muster the superhuman strength to walk away a second time.

Suddenly the concept of ‘routine’, that continually gets badgered, sounds so appealing. That ‘how was your day’ phone call at 5pm each day; the Friday nights you both dedicate to one another week in, week out; the doing rings around your local park together; the getting ice cream each Sunday; and the imaginary imprint he left in the passenger seat of your car. So routine, but never before have you craved it this much until now.

No one will freely break it to you but it can hurt for a long time. You’ll fall apart. An Armageddon inside your heart will occur. And for all the times you hear the line ‘it gets better in time’, you desperately wish it can collectively make the pain go away, even just for a day. It’s funny how words can only do so much, yet staring into space can impart immeasurable amounts of consolation.

Your tears don’t discriminate. They’ll make a break for it by the bucketload, on the bus, behind your desk, at 4am, or whilst you’re drowning your sorrows at an overcrowded bar during which your state of solace is rudely interrupted by the doof-doof music.

With the help of your well-meaning mates, a handful of inebriated moments will offer you relief for all but one night, whilst the rest of your weekends are punctuated with your BFFs waiting for you on the other side of the bathroom door, offering to hold your hair back whilst you purge everything and anything, tangible or otherwise. This comes after an emotional drunken stint on the valentine swing in someone else’s backyard whereby people you don’t recognise (the tears that profusely trickle down don’t help) offer their own advice like Subject Matter Experts whilst you harp on and on, incoherently for the most part, about how much you want him to be there to make everything better again.

Eurgh, pathetic.

Waking up is hard to do, but doing so becomes totally plausible if only for the fact that it will give you an opportunity to stop dreaming powerlessly about your one and only. The dreams are the worst bit.

Yep, breakups truly suck balls.

But you will get through it and you know you know it. With every day that passes, you’ll start to miss him less and less; and as unfathomable as it may seem, he will no longer inhabit an undeserving chunk of your weary mind. You’ll soon forget what heartbreak feels like; and, as sad as it may seem, you’ll forget little by little how much you really were in love with him. As someone had said to me: “For a while you’ll feel as if you will never be able to be with anyone else…but one day you’ll wake up and realise you can longer bear the thought of being with him.” It is so true. The hard part is just being patient enough to see it come to fruition.

So milk it for all you can. No one is going to let you be this pathetic forever. Put that angry Alanis Morrisette song on repeat; treat yourself to that $20 UK Vogue that you once considered outrageously priced for a glossy; buy yourself lunch for 30 days’ straight; book a holiday; buy a handbag to fill the void; and cry on as many shoulders as you can whilst you can still get away with it.

For the record…it will get better in time.

two diff sides.

i guess moderation is preferred by most?

but i'm kinda like either too boring, or too hyper.

i have totally two very different sides to me.

i'm sure those who knows me well will understand what i'm saying.

i dont think i have the right to judge other ppl.

cos i myself..am definitely someone who seeks excitement and fun and do things without thinking twice.

lol.

lesson learnt today: never consume any form of alcohol when i'm feeling emotionally unstable.

but, i donno whether thats good or bad actually.

cos ive got ppl telling me that they actually prefer the noisy and hyper me over the usual quiet me.

*sighs*

today hurts.

so today's the day huh.

one week already.

i still cant get over it.

using all the wrong ways to forget.

all the wrong ways.

my item got stolen. haha.

Regards
Joe Choa
Apple Bazaar Pte. Ltd.
Address: 60 Kaki Bukit Place Eunos Techpark
#02-16 Singapore 415979
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Dear Customer,

thank you for your business with Apple Bazaar. However i am sorry that i have a unpleasant news to inform you. We receive an email from our shipper yesterday that the item which supposed to be shipped to you was stolen from the Singapore airport. As such, there would be a delay in the timing of receiving the item.

However please do not worry, today we had repacked and resend the item to you. We also had informed you on the latest registered number of the parcel.

As such, there would be a delay in your receipt of the item by a couple of days more. We seek your patience in this and sorry for any inconvenience caused.

Please feel free to email us if there is any queries or further issues.

As the below mentioned, it is the email from our shipper to inform us on the issue.

Regards

Joe

damn funny weh. item got stolen -_- wth.hahahhahahahaha