a moment's happiness

issit true that happiness for me is just temporary?

how cruel can it get?

i've barely had enough of it.

just a moment's grasp, and soon..it's gonna be gone forever?

why?

i must have committed great sins to deserve stg like this.

seriously.

i really cannot comprehend it. i cant.

i wish i can, but i'm just lying if i say that it doesnt matter, that this is just how it is.

why is it that i'm never rewarded despite putting in my all for stg i cherish?

ok, maybe not my all..but at least i definitely treasure this short time we have/had together.

why, why, WHY must life play with me like this?

WHY.

-_-

Taurus

dont get caught up worrying about things you cannot change, taurus. you may be feeling frustrated over your lack of control in a certain matter regarding relationships or money issues, or maybe even both. if you can manage to think positively about whatever is causing you the most angst, and you can develop a 'what will be will be' attitude while still doing all that you can to achieve an optimum result, you will be able to make magic happen. meditation or visualization techniques could help you to achieve this goal.

DAMN accurate man this horoscope. Speechless.

accurate yet so freaky. -_-

down

my mood's down.
good thing's been happening.
but yet, i still feel down.
i really gotta get back on track or stg.

i like the series supernatural. pretty good stuff (:

two diff extremes

i realised..
i can be either really, really bold, hyper and noisy or..
really, really shy, quiet and tired.
two exactly very opposite extremes.
with or w/o alcohol. lol.
quite interesting really. to be able to have two totally different behaviour.

yesterday must be the happiest day of my life.

missing stg

a friend asked me..
have u ever felt as though something's missing from ur life?
like somehow you just need something to make everything else okay?

i said yes.

actually i've been feeling like this for a very long time.
i really have no idea what my aim in life is. what my goal is.
turning 21 tomorrow, but seems like my mentality and all is still that of a 12 year old? lol

sighs.
21 here i come.

dramas.

u know how those drama stuffs that always happen in tv series. be it gg or 90210 or whatever.
now i'm experiencing dramas nonstop.
happening within my circle of friends.
and man, i sure hate it a lot.
i'm usually the kind that doesnt know how to deal with dramas.
it might be kinda interesting at the beginning..bt abit too much of it? no way, i can tolerate it no more.
maybe it's wrong that i'm not sticking my butt into these matters when it involves my close friends.
i'm js listening and watching along, not helping much at all.
i dont even know who is right, what is right, or whatever anymore.
its been too confusing till i cant even differentiate right from wrong.

i'm memang not the type to care abt these stuffs.
but recently i've become more 8, butting myself into certain things.
8 means i'm caring right? =0

i've learnt alot abt the world around us that i've never known abt before.
yet there are still things i dont get. what does one's action imply? interest or just mere kindness and friendliness?
making stupid assumptions to the point that i would do stg i normally wouldnt have done at all. giving myself hope, and then becoming disappointed again later. shucks.
maybe i shouldnt thnk anymore..if it happens, it happens right? =p

first time.

it's the first time ever..
that im like this.
be the first to initiate..be the first to care..

is the boredom or too much free time making me like this? lol
on fb like practically 24/7 is definitely driving me crazy.
to the extent that i'm overthinking trivial matters. lmao.

carol have stooped to this extent. oh boyyyy. lol
gym is definitely the cure to keep my mind off things. jogging and sweating makes me feel good. freshened up.

i really shouldn't let it bother me right?
there's been good parts, bad parts.
gotta js step back for now and see how things will turn out. but.. i js cant seem to take my mind off it.

improper diet isnt making things better either. too much free time. too lazy to do anything.
wtf is wrong with me?
not worth it to screw up my life js cos of that little thing.
right?

my online shopping should be here soon!! =p