my 21st bday!

suddenly have this urge to blog..so here i am uploading pics from my 21st this year. sure do feel old, officially an adult. yet, i dont think i've matured much and i definitely do not feel in any way like an adult. still want to enjoy life and bum ard like a freaking teenager. w/o a single care abt the responsibilities and commitments that i hafta face sooner or later. ok, going off topic.

so basically, i had my bday dinner at this korean BBQ restaurant called hwaro.

the food was alright, but i guess it was kinda pricey for the amount of food they served.

after dinner, went to cho gao for some drinks, and had my cake there.

erm, sorry but the pics are kinda jumbled up. i cbb arranging them properly, so i js randomly uploaded the first pic i saw. HAHA then on may 7th, had another more party celebration down at seven. surprisingly, i did not get bounced!

wtf, u have no idea. nearly everyone, like seriously everyone had no faith in me.

they were like.."carol, pls dont get kicked out.."

had this bet with a friend that i wouldnt get bounced before 2am, and i won!

won myself a nice bday dinner treat =p teehee. but all in all, had a pretty decent and fun 21st.

mind ya, i might look really red in some of the pics below but i was not drunk. i just get red really easily. NO ONE wanted to give me drinks.. helooooo?? have more faith in me pls. LOL opened three bottles of drink but i only had one cup? wth right?!! pfft.

thats me and my closest guy friend, pootsssss. :) him and his half-blinking eyes EVERYTIME he takes photos with me. lol

sarah, me and fern.

sarah a.k.a my junior from lodge.

why is everyone ard me so young nowadays? -_-

sarah wong min minggggg

ellyn! she's like only 19. zzz

my beloved ladies :)

shiishii a.k.a julian

sure feels great to have good friends and company to celebrate a bday with (:

lihfern.

ann baby <3>

the four of us missing jolyn.

me, ting, ann

deaannneeeee

gordon

louisss

me and ann again. hehe

lee yi.

me and wenzaaooo, the other bday boy.

mel liu.

it was crazy glasses night, we got free 3d glasses upon early entry. lol.

me blowing cake at cho gaoooo.

ok i got lazy with the captions.

haha.

but yeah, im offiically OLD. bah.

despite spending one of the most memorable and fun bdays of my life, i can't be happy all the time. lol.

gonna make the most of what i have now.

it might seem that i have the life of a God now or whatever u wanna call it since i'm basically just bumming ard doing ntg whilst the others hafta cram loads of lectures into their brain..

i am completely at a lost.

i doonnno what to expect, what to do, what to want, what to think, what to look fwd to.

ok here fcking goes emo Carol again.

and yes, now i swear openly.

i have this gp of friends that seriously swear nearly every single sentence. it's hilarious in a way. lol.

i js worked everyday since tues till today, and it sure is tiring. at least it takes my mind off things i guess. sydney in august baby :)

a moment's happiness

issit true that happiness for me is just temporary?

how cruel can it get?

i've barely had enough of it.

just a moment's grasp, and soon..it's gonna be gone forever?

why?

i must have committed great sins to deserve stg like this.

seriously.

i really cannot comprehend it. i cant.

i wish i can, but i'm just lying if i say that it doesnt matter, that this is just how it is.

why is it that i'm never rewarded despite putting in my all for stg i cherish?

ok, maybe not my all..but at least i definitely treasure this short time we have/had together.

why, why, WHY must life play with me like this?

WHY.

-_-

Taurus

dont get caught up worrying about things you cannot change, taurus. you may be feeling frustrated over your lack of control in a certain matter regarding relationships or money issues, or maybe even both. if you can manage to think positively about whatever is causing you the most angst, and you can develop a 'what will be will be' attitude while still doing all that you can to achieve an optimum result, you will be able to make magic happen. meditation or visualization techniques could help you to achieve this goal.

DAMN accurate man this horoscope. Speechless.

accurate yet so freaky. -_-

down

my mood's down.
good thing's been happening.
but yet, i still feel down.
i really gotta get back on track or stg.

i like the series supernatural. pretty good stuff (:

two diff extremes

i realised..
i can be either really, really bold, hyper and noisy or..
really, really shy, quiet and tired.
two exactly very opposite extremes.
with or w/o alcohol. lol.
quite interesting really. to be able to have two totally different behaviour.

yesterday must be the happiest day of my life.

missing stg

a friend asked me..
have u ever felt as though something's missing from ur life?
like somehow you just need something to make everything else okay?

i said yes.

actually i've been feeling like this for a very long time.
i really have no idea what my aim in life is. what my goal is.
turning 21 tomorrow, but seems like my mentality and all is still that of a 12 year old? lol

sighs.
21 here i come.

dramas.

u know how those drama stuffs that always happen in tv series. be it gg or 90210 or whatever.
now i'm experiencing dramas nonstop.
happening within my circle of friends.
and man, i sure hate it a lot.
i'm usually the kind that doesnt know how to deal with dramas.
it might be kinda interesting at the beginning..bt abit too much of it? no way, i can tolerate it no more.
maybe it's wrong that i'm not sticking my butt into these matters when it involves my close friends.
i'm js listening and watching along, not helping much at all.
i dont even know who is right, what is right, or whatever anymore.
its been too confusing till i cant even differentiate right from wrong.

i'm memang not the type to care abt these stuffs.
but recently i've become more 8, butting myself into certain things.
8 means i'm caring right? =0

i've learnt alot abt the world around us that i've never known abt before.
yet there are still things i dont get. what does one's action imply? interest or just mere kindness and friendliness?
making stupid assumptions to the point that i would do stg i normally wouldnt have done at all. giving myself hope, and then becoming disappointed again later. shucks.
maybe i shouldnt thnk anymore..if it happens, it happens right? =p