pale girl

just wondering why im always so pale. not that im anemic or anything. at least i think i'm not.
my friend calls my pale girl. so sad..

but i dont put make up also. so i always feel so under-dressed? considering the fact that nearly almost all the aussies here uses make up. hrm..
duno why so pale..got some secret technique kah to keep ur face not pale?

lols. i cant get microbes into my brain.

16 more days

16 more days to freedom, and another 9 more days after that before i can say
"home sweet home".. hehe. (:

congrats to ann and zai zai btw.
like FINALLY, you guys are together.
what happened to all the bets the others had? 2 more weeks? 3 more? or 4 more? that was like..
when ah? i think during sep or late aug or july. haha

and now zai zai not emo anymore.. he pass his disease on to rod

haih..dont emo (=

im tired from studying.

perhaps?

just read amy's blog..
and i was thinking perhaps..
i myself am wearing a mask as well..

being the infamous blur queen?
maybe im used to hiding behind that "title" now...that i just act blur all the time anyways
when in fact, i dont think im all that blur at all
i wont deny that im fear of being judged by others..
so whatever feelings/opinions that i have, were never expressed..

which leads to the point where i almost never judge someone else cos of my own thoughts.
im an easily swayed being thats for sure..
cos whenever i hear bad things abt others,
do i actually defend a friend, or agree to what others say abt them?
no.
but instead my perception abt someone changed slowly.
maybe cos a person's being talked abt behind their backs-which doesnt lead to anything good?
i have no idea.

and often times bcos of the way i am, im on the verge of losing close friends..
i never try and find out the real reason behind things,
i just go with the flow.
which is bad.

thinking back to the past,
i often wonder now, why did i drift apart from my friends?
like when i got promoted..for some reason, i lost all my friends from the year below.
i know the problems lie within me, myself, and no one else.
and i cant seem to remember the reasons why.

and also perhaps of fear of being judged by others,
and also fear of the truth rubbed right in my face,
i almost lost another friend back then.

and im pretty sure my thoughts are all over the place. cant seem to express it properly. o.O

untitled

i duno wat title to write so i'll just put untitled. which reminds me how much i liked that song last time. used to write the lyrics out on erichs table hahaha

today's weather super hot! and wat more.. the worst situation ever..we have no bathroom to use. haha cos it's currently under renovation. o.O so went to frens place to shower these two days. paiseh. bt wat to do, i need my shower lah.

must have been super tired last nite, cos i wanted to take nap from 7 stg to 9, bt ended up sleeping til 3 stg. like 8 hrs of sleep! haha

i cant wait for after exams. three more weeks.. very fast one. sighs*

saiunkoku monogatari(pretty cool anime, i like)

vampire knight guilty!! season 2 out! hehehe
i wonder whether my love for anime will ever die off..? hrm...

ok time to study... lala

my mysteriously missing genetics papers

for some reason.. my genetics prac assignments and marks went missing. we were suppose to collect them from outside the genetics lab last week.. so my friends helped me pick mine up. BUT

my papers were missing from the trays. =.="

like what the...

the possible reasons i came up with:

1. someone really really likes me so they decided to steal my papers and keep them. in other words, i have a stalker (which is so unlikely)
2. someone really really hates me/envies me cos of my brilliant prac test and assignments-not
3. i might have sleep walk all the way to uni and picked them up myself without realising it
4. some idiotic/silly friend of mine a.k.a jack leong decided to play a trick on me and stole them and submitted it to the microbes office. like yerrite.
   
5. someone took them by mistake and just couldn't be bothered returning them to the lab so im guessing my poor papers may have ended up in one of the garbage bins XD

i was really pissed at first when i found out my papers werent there. but on second though, not that important also. the answers are posted on blackboard. lolz bt i gues i just wanted to have a look at my prac test paper. oh wells. (:

can't study

craps. i cant study lah. stil not in the mood yet. must be cos im trying to study bioinformatics. so boring.. blah. bloody unmotivated to study at all loh. me and my frens are like planning wat to do during the hols already.(: even though exams are like.. abit more than a week away.

some more i keep surfing the net.. lots of new animes out this october. vampire knight season 2, gundam 00 season 2.. hrm

dgrayman ended already!! like wat the?? the ending kinda disappointing actually.craps. more like NO ENDING at all.. sighs* alot of my frens are applying for internship for summer. should i do that too? maybe i shud apply go kl work or stg? maybe kch might have?:S urghs..

ok maybe i'll just slack one more night before i start studying..

happy bday sjane + sean + ann

happy bday to my sexy, tall 'sis'!! hehehe (: have a great one! ure finally legal? yeah. finally legal. hehehe.
future-to-be doc.
stole the pic of her blog. haha

also, happy bday to mr sean chew!!
the future-to-be-architect.. hrm... cheers.

and last bt not least..

happy bday to ANNIE!!! stil early bt one day earlier is better than one day later i gues? hahaha

hope u have a good one today.
you've been nothing but a great, "blur?", funny friend.
never fail to make me laugh when you're around..
stop working so much.. if you still are.. dont need buy so many alannah hill clothes lah ;p
love ya!
happy 20th.