Saturday, June 19, 2010

fatness

haha ok, here goes a typical girl again.
complaining about being fat when they're just skins and bones.
which in my case...it's not so true.

i'm feeling the fats on me face now...dayum.
and on me legs...dayum.
and on me thighs...
and me waist and stomach. HAHAHAHA

ok this can totally be explained by (at least that's what i think)..
me eating late dinners..and eating more than what i normally eat.
which can also be explained by my lack of gym workouts due to my work.
AND
it can also be explained by one of my many sacrifices and effort that i put in. (hidden meaning =D) haha

man..i dont wanna look chubby in photos.
cos it's kinda like important that i look nice in photos that will be taken these few weeks. =p

shucks.
imma eat my dinner now + watch supernatural.


my wish list.


like everyone else..i too, have a wish list.
luckily, that doesn't include clothes anymore.
for some reason I'm not that keen to shop anymore, pbb cos i'm occupied now for the time being.

my wish list:-
1. a car
- it has become quite a pain to take public transport to travel everywhere now

2. a small digital camera
- ok, i know i have a freaking dslr, but it can be quite troublesome to bring around when i'm just out shopping or having a cup of coffee with some friends.
a canon powershot-sx210 IS?
Ann introduced this cam to me..but now there's really not much reason for me to get one anymore.

3. visit japan, korea, europe.. and any other places i've never been to.
- would be great to be able to visit places without any worries over the obligations in life like studying or working. if only life is that easy.

4. a steady job
- i might sound like a hypocrite..since i said i want a job, but yet i'm doing not much to achieve that. haha. i'm practically like a lil spoilt brat waiting for a job offer to miraculously pop up out of nowhere. lol.

5. be at two places at once
- i so wanna be able to spend my life with my parents and family back home. but yet, i want an independent life by myself too. -_- it's pbb cos here i have freedom and no restrictions whatsoever, but i tend to get lonely stimes too despite having alot of friends here. and also another reason which you wouldnt want to me to get started on, or else it's just gonna turn out to be another emo post =p


there's probably more that i want but i can't be bothered writing more.
bah.
i was about to say that i really should start getting serious with my life here in Melbourne.
feel like bitch slapping myself for talking but always not doing anything about it.
damn hopeless lah me.




Friday, June 18, 2010

m&ms and lollis.

i have this sudden cravings for chocs.
uh-ohs.
and i seem to be eating alot lately.
like my idea of alot is when i eat till i actually feel full.
totally dislike the feeling when i feel too full cos it just makes me feel blotted and uncomfortable.
boo.

OMGGGG by Usher is yums.
(=
and here's the remix that poots' totally in love with, and i'll gladly share it with you guys.

15 more days.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

you.

despite telling myself it's gonna be ok..
that it doesnt matter and that i can move on like u've never been part of my life before,
i can't help but admit that those are all just lies.

lies. lies.
just so maybe,
i will be able to move on easily and continue on with my normal life like i never came across u at all.

i cant help but think about how u will move on easily like i never mattered to you at all.
considering your past incidents with others.
if only, i can have some supernatural talent like a "listener" from legend of the seeker that'll allow me to read minds..and just so i can know what's on your mind.

you're still like a person filled with mysteries to me.
there are many things that i don't know about you.
i wish there'd be more time and chance for me to get to know you more.
i want to, i really do.

like how i realised how childish u can be at times; making me laugh cos of ur silliness.
how when u feel cold, u won't even complain to me at all..but instead just walk on silently with that particular expression on ur face.
like how u were so scared of heights the other time at st kilda..and acted like a lil kid who's afraid he'll fall off any moment.
like how u'd make time for me despite having plans already..and moved ur plans to another night.
and like how.. u can be such a stupid ass stimes and rather watch world cup then go fetch me from the station with your friend's car; or chat with ur cousin or watch supernatural instead of replying me on whatsapp.

and now..we'll never be able to share more memories together..
me getting high and you taking care of me again.
or me pigging on biscuits and you eating from your whole tub of yoghurt.
or me bullying you while ur body aches all over from gym.

and other countless things i wanna do with you.
a vacation somewhere, celebrating special occasions tgt..going to a ball tgt.

u are seriously the best thing that ever happened to me.
if only things were different, and u didnt have to leave.


ok. i must be mad, as mr pan says.
i think i am too.





Defqon?

Defqon anyone?
Kinda into trance and hardstyle music recently.
not that i know much abt it..js that the music's pretty good.




i wanna know where i can download the albums..kinda noob at this man. haha.
ohh, i set up a tumblr account too. but then...
i have no idea how to use it. LOL
super noob man me.
so guess i'll js stick to blogspot.
AND i dont even know how to delete the tumblr account. lol
feel damn stupid sia..haha

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

family & friends

i have awesome family + friends.
even if i feel lonely and down..
their small actions and words can lift my mood and put a smile on my face.

donno how i can live without them.
<3

"It is not the end of the world."
wokays.
got it.

Monday, June 14, 2010

what i've been doing for the first half of 2010

so what have i been doing since 2010?
went back to kch for abt two months from early jan till early march.
always good to be back, to catch up with loved ones and meet up with old mates.
so, the few highlights of my short trip back to kch includes Ann's visit to kch for the weekend.
basically just brought her around to eat, and visited some friends' place. i dont think we brought her around much for some reason. i am an absolutely lousy tour guide haha.
but we did go to piccadillys for some drinks.

on her last day at kch, ron actually brought her prawnfishing which she did enjoy i think.

good trip back to kch, thats for sure. met old high schoolmates, and even made a couple of new friends. fun ppl indeed.


not to forget cny! the usual cny visits to ppl's house, collecting red packets..
gambling and eating cny junks.

decided to give fringe a try..it was pure disaster. i frigging looked like a chinadoll or someone who tried to cut her hair by herself and ended up screwing it. well, it did kinda looked alright in the group pic below..but after going for another more proper haircut(whole head), my fringe was bizarre all over again. sobs. major hair disaster/nightmare which caused me a couple of laughs and bad comments from friends after i came back to melb.

karaoke seshs back in kch. we actually went karaoke for quite a few times. cuzzie went back to kch too.



then back in melb.
bak decided to visit for two weeks since he have ntg better to do cos of the long wait till sep or stg before he head down to uk.

brought him to the zoo (damn boring), breakkies, visited mt dandenong and had absolutely yummy scones at ms marples and pies from pie in the sky!


the famous giant chair.

scones!
last dinner with bak before he left.

tried playing dodgeball.




then the usual seshs at seven.
pic with ellyn.
clubbing when jolyn and rod was still around in melb.


pics say it all..i lazy to comment more lah. haha this was at Lions at melb central..was jolyns farewell drink session before she left for good.

ahhh.. and not to forget shopping. did quite alot of it man. bloody hell. broke like shit. esp those online shopping seshs. bloody ripped me off! pfft.
oh and also karaoke yet again back in melb here when bak came too. ok i'm getting bored rambling all this shit now here. haha most ppl just frigging look at the pics anyway.
jolyns graduation day! so lucky to have so many friends ard..unlike my grad..most friends were back in their home country )= but at least i had my family over as well as uncle and cousins from syd. hehe

siaw sook and michael visited from syd again to watch the f1 grand prix..thats siaw sook taking photos of the f1 racing cars. did i mention that i absolutely love the sound of the f1 racing cars? yums. haha
this was at boon's place where the girls were fiddling ard with jolyns boxes of jewelleries and other stuffs which she didnt manage to bring back to msia.. girls. it was like those ahmas snatching goods at a night market haha.
then there was also the housewarming party at kui's, caleb's and tim's.
notts nightouts. nott's a pub whereby monash students visit mainly on thurs nights to hang out. met new friends too. abit sien how new friends that i meet these days are all getting younger and younger. i mean they are either the same age as me or a few years younger. -_- unlike how i used to always be the younger one since my friends were mostly one or two years older. oh wells, shows that i'm aging and not all that young anymore i reckon? haha.
with kynan (:
absolutely fun group of friends. asians ftw!
then there was this night that i went seven with just cheryl..sarah and her friends were there for posse posse's 21st. a night to rmbr? i guess so.. cos i actually did stg out of the ordinary. pursuing stg and making a move for the first time for stg i want? haha
met up with vyn too :) great catch up we had. went to maxbren at the glen.

gordons bday at some pizza place.
my 21st at VII baby.


errr i guess thats all for now. i'm pretty sure i left out alot.

so basically my half year here in melb covers just bumming ard ALOT
making new friends
hanging out
night sessions at tenren with dn, ann, cheryl, poots etc
sleepovers at cheryls
girls night out
nights at seven etc (mind ya, a lot of cutting down dy...imma so over clubbing)
some lame attempts job hunt but always failed to achieve much.
bloody fail lah me....i really donno what to expect for the future dy.
i totally need everything to be laid out for me lehhhh

and i met someone i really liked, er ok like, not liked.
but i guess things werent meant to be so..despite being the most happiest girl a few weeks back..soon i'm gonna be the most unhappy girl around?

someone told me, "it is not the end of the world.."
but, i take this really seriously. i dont go into stg merely for fun.
oh whatever.
haha time to sleep baby.
but for some odd reason i'm not tired at all.






save me.