i need self control.

waaaaaaaa.

i spent again!!!!

BUT, BUT...

trying on those pretty dresses and clothes makes me so happpyyyyy haha.

:D

especially when i look good in them.

why can't we girls just get any clothes we want for free? =D

it'll be a much happier world for sure? HAHA.

alannah hill headband, yums.

two tops from bardot, yums.

i wanted the bardot denim dress too but mo chin ahhhhh )=

and also the dotti dresssss. =x

ok, no more shopping babeh.

makan makan makan!

oh mama.

i bet with ya my stomach's damn satisfied.

not too sure about my brain though..

all the food i consumed!

ate at china bar signature buffet.

really worth it for sure, good price for reasonably good food.

http://www.chinabarsignature.com/

oh gosh.

about time i bond with the gym..

been ditching it for two weeks dy )=

and i bet with ya my bed misses me too.

wow i so need to let the shiats outta my body now. heehee.

can't blif i'm actually watching world cup now.

well, not really watching but the tv's on. ned just scored a goal

what country is ned anyway? =D OH, netherlands haha.

waiseh..js been eating these few days.

dangerous....

i need to do my laundryyyyyyy.lol.

and damn spontaneous, today me and cheryl each bought a pair of studded red flats from general pants. it was like buy one get one free!

(:

spontaneous.

haha feels good to be spontaneous.

but there's the risk of doing stg stupid since i'm not exactly using my brain very well at the moment.

excitement, excitement.

really need those now.

dayum.

probably should have watched paranormal activity with cheryl and the rest js now but i was busy doing stg else.

now cheryl's too freaked out, haha.

went to phillip island 2day with cheryl and kai han for a day trip.

visited A Maze N things..it was alright.

at least a trip somewhere to take my mind off things.

the most interesting and exciting part of that place was the free fall thing we did.

had to hang onto the monkey bar which was like at least 50ft high, then let go on free fall then slided down..

damn chun man. =D

that totally cheered me up abit.

what next? (:

spontaneous laaahhhh.

the backup plan.

the happy carol's gonna be back soon.

just give me say... 2 weeks? hehe.

and im pretty sure i'll be alright again. woots.

so my backup plan for now..

1. go on trips - been asking friends to plan trips and bring me places haha

2. shopping

3. check out cool cafes and restaurants; gonna go to some buffet place at boxhill monday night

4. watch series

5. crash friends' place

6. drinking

7. movies

8. work

9. city, city, cityyyyyy. just hang with friends and talk crap for all i care.

hrmmm pretty long list, no? =D haha.

seems like i'm gonna be on another very long vacation before i hit work life.

i reckon i should be saying, "crap, i'm doomed for."

but instead, i'm gonna say "ahh, this is how life should be."

:D

xoxo

goodbye.

it's for the best, huh?

i didn't understand what he was doing for us, i didnt.

but i guess i kinda do now.

stubbornness so strong from both sides, yet i had no choice but to give in.

wanted to spend the remaining days with him

but

in a way it'd just make us both more depressed and sad when the time comes for him to finally leave?

i guess that kinda make sense..but just that my stubbornness and reluctance to give in clouded my thinking. all i had in my mind was that "i wanna spend time with him while i still can.."

i dont care if i'm gonna hurt more later since making more memories tgt is not gonna do us any good since there won't be a "us" in the end.

i guess girls and guys really do think differently.

girls just do things and then think abt the consequences later.

but guys like him, actually think about what's best for each of us.

he said: "trust me, i'm doing this for the better".

ok, despite wanting to spend at least a last date together..

i guess i will just have to do with never even seeing him again till he leaves.

and who knows when will the next time be till we meet again.

and of cos, things will be so different.

it'll hurt then..when that time comes.

but it wouldnt be worse then how i feel now.

everywhere i go, i can't help thinking.

last night at seven, was pure disaster.

i couldn't smile. i really couldnt.

i felt helpless, i felt lost, i felt hurt.

we had memories there at seven too.

and hearing the same song playing made me breakdown.

make me wanna just crawl into a nice, isolated hole and hide in there forever.

i wouldnt know what to do if not for my friends.

thanks so much peeps. i really, really appreciate it.

and sorry for showing my emo-ness so much.

and now..i guess i'm just gonna say..

goodbye for now.

cousin.

had a great chat with Billy on Msnnn

kinda cleared up my mind abit..

and i feel much better now.

had a couple of laughs too.

made him anti- someone that he's never even spoken to before.

and then he randomly posted a wiki link of a Angora rabbit to me.

haha.-_- it's basically just a whole ball of furry being. haha. his convo with abby.

〖 abï 〗~☆彡 says:

cute omg so cuteeeeeeeee

billy to me: i was like

frozen in time

haha

like in my head was all "omg omg omg omg omg omgggggg omg omg omg omg"

LMAO.

billy: abi going gila dy. the rabbit so UGLY right.

HAHA

iOS 4!!!

shittttt.

i just checked out the new features they have for iOS4..seems damn good weh.

saw the updated version of the iphone too..

like can multitask, can create folders for ur apps, got 5x zoom for the camera, can tap to focus when you wanna video..

actually the new iphone itself looks damn sexy also. haha.

so i'm figuring out how to actually upgrade my phone to the latest firmware.

but apparently i shouldnt dload the latest firmware yet since i wanna keep my phone unlocked.

but currently trying to jailbreak my phone to the 3.1.3 firmware.

not that it makes much diff i think..but i feel like my phone damn outdated since it's on 3.0.1 firmware.haha

fingers crossed that it'll work out fine since i'm a bloody computer noob kinda. haha

*sighs*