goodbye.

it's for the best, huh?

i didn't understand what he was doing for us, i didnt.

but i guess i kinda do now.

stubbornness so strong from both sides, yet i had no choice but to give in.

wanted to spend the remaining days with him

but

in a way it'd just make us both more depressed and sad when the time comes for him to finally leave?

i guess that kinda make sense..but just that my stubbornness and reluctance to give in clouded my thinking. all i had in my mind was that "i wanna spend time with him while i still can.."

i dont care if i'm gonna hurt more later since making more memories tgt is not gonna do us any good since there won't be a "us" in the end.

i guess girls and guys really do think differently.

girls just do things and then think abt the consequences later.

but guys like him, actually think about what's best for each of us.

he said: "trust me, i'm doing this for the better".

ok, despite wanting to spend at least a last date together..

i guess i will just have to do with never even seeing him again till he leaves.

and who knows when will the next time be till we meet again.

and of cos, things will be so different.

it'll hurt then..when that time comes.

but it wouldnt be worse then how i feel now.

everywhere i go, i can't help thinking.

last night at seven, was pure disaster.

i couldn't smile. i really couldnt.

i felt helpless, i felt lost, i felt hurt.

we had memories there at seven too.

and hearing the same song playing made me breakdown.

make me wanna just crawl into a nice, isolated hole and hide in there forever.

i wouldnt know what to do if not for my friends.

thanks so much peeps. i really, really appreciate it.

and sorry for showing my emo-ness so much.

and now..i guess i'm just gonna say..

goodbye for now.