went shopping ard city with sere, lik, both kelvins, zai zai and bryan yesterday. it was a pretty productive day for the guys; they bought what they wanted and i must say they're pleased. hehe. i was just looking around and not so sure what i want to get yet. yweah ive been wanting to get myself a pair of nice new shoes - onitsuka tiger or converse probably or anything of those sort. but then again, im kinda sim tia to spend money.
yes, so they say, "you're working already mah so it's alright to spend." yes i know it's okay, but it's still hard work earning those cash ya noe. =p "you feel guilty at first after you spend bt then laterwards you'll feel happy." - that's probably true.....
ok you can stop now if u dont wanna read on cos it's gonna be a pretty long and draggy post. lols this is not an emo post btw. i am just saying what i feel.
just going into shops and browsing and looking through all the nice clothes/shoes etc makes me feel so greedy. it's like, 'man..i want all those stuff.' they're the devil i tell ya. all the things so nice. i can even make a list of what i want now. it's just insanely crazy. shoes, pants, jackets, caps. wat the heck. one can never be content with what they already have. we always yearn for more. thats just us humans.
if i didnt see all those things, my mind probably wont run wild and like say.. ok im gonna get myself that or whatever. just read amy lee's blog just now. she was saying about how she wished part of 07 still remains? how things remain unchanged and all. yeah it got me thinking. about how things may have changed. kinda true. about how we hope that some part of life stil remains the same, and that the changes that have occured - never happened. now now, even i dont get what the heck im rambling about. lol
also from kel's blog, he was saying how things arent always perfect. nothings perfect. like how when u enjoyed the weekend or this easter break and just want to ignore reality and just play ur hearts out... but once it's all over - u just gotta get back to reality. you can't always stay in ur dream world and dread what's gotta happen next. thats just how life is.
i'm thinking wayyyy too much. come to think of it - thats what i do every single day. when i look tired or blur; yep carol's brains working hard alright. maybe thats why i always looked worn out. cant work me brain cells too hard ya noe. bt i just cant help it.
and so i was also thinking about my future career. stimes i just think whether im actually doing the right thing with my life now. biomedical science's interesting alright. but im not really sure what to expect from myself after i graduate. i really don't. yes i should start researching more cos it's oneself that determines their own life and directions blah blah. but you know how ppl procrastinate right.
and how i keep thinking life's boring. i wish there were more excitements happening. like maybe suddenly one day aliens suddenly invade earth and start turning the world upside down. or maybe suddenly we're all granted with powers and we can start sending sparks and magic at each other. or like MAYBE MAYBE suddenly a charming prince appears right before me and i'll just melt into his arms. hhahah. or maybe i just need to get a life. i know this is so blooody random bt for now im just blabbering whatever comes into my mind.
i havent been pouring my hearts out to any ppl recently besides my mum. seems like ive lost those whom i can actually talk and chitty chat alot with. like just basically talk about life.. like laugh our hearts out and just enjoy each other's company. i really dunno anymore.. im not upset or anything just that it would be better if things didnt change. (=
anyhoooo,
i was planning to study abit today and tomoro..bt i wonder how smooth things will go. it never works according to my plan. i suppose it might be better to just take things slowly one at a time? i have no idea.
whatever. i need music. the way i are by timberland's nice. lol
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