run away?

6 more days till i get back to Melb.

can't run away anymore.

gotta accept it, even it's somewhere i kinda dread going back.

since there're still other good things back there.

(:

rainbow after the rain

"Missing you isn't the hard part, knowing I once had you is what breaks my heart."

that quote above is true..but i'd rather have had that person rather than not have had him at all before yeah?

i'm really trying hard to be optimistic now..

i'm very sure there'd be a "rainbow after the rain."

even though i still feel emptiness conquering my heart now..

i'll still try, cos there really isnt any point holding on to something that will never happen again. right?

"Pain is inevitable, Suffering is optional."

So why should i choose to suffer?

Even though i'm probably just saying all these to make myself move on easily,

but yeah, whatever works right? lol. =D

it's been a month already.

been way too long.

i dont even feel sad anymore; but rather i would say i'm just being stubborn and still not accepting it.

about time i get back to realityyyy.

but realities are never nice =0

i am so dreading going back to Melbourne. Boo.

i am in need of some spice in my life, period.

no more late nights!

oh am gee.

i just came back from facial and it hurt like mad!!

no more late nightsssss

nooooo more.

this is by far the worst facial treatment i have had.

i almost died. like seriously.

my "no more late nights" = sleeping at 11 everyday.

errrrr..?

yeah right.

i'll try anyway.

zzz

ok, i'm so done with it.

no more sudden burst of craziness.

(:

must watch movies!

inception is super, super good.

really must watch it!

and hachiko is very, very touching

must watch it tooooo.

(:

singaporeee.

like finally, the trip's been finalised.

22nd-25th!

:D:D:D

not gonna shop till i drop cos i'm already broke.

but just want to visit to chill and relax,

well basically, a change of environment.

cant wait (=

definitely feeling much better nowadays.

i still think stimes, but it doesn't really hurt anymore.

dont get me wrong, i hurt cos i miss, not cos it was filled with bad memories.

you'll always be part of my most cherished memories. hehe.

icy cold heart..

sometimes i even wonder how can i be so heartless?

so uncaring and just icy cold.

is it cos i dono what to do and say?

or i don't know how to show that i actually do care?

cos for some reason..

all i've been doing is complaining non-stop.

i feel bad, i feel like a useless person.

if i were to be in their position instead, i know i wouldn't feel good about it either.

i really donno how to care, i dont.

i don't want to be like this.

i shouldn't be.

i can't be.

i've no excuse to be like this.

D:

i really am selfish.